Hm, orientation is over. Zosma finished 5th. Again. Then again, how in the world are you supposed to stage a good tragedy at a campfire? Its like so bloody anticlimax la. Everyone happily laughing away then you want to do tragedy. So I shall blame bad luck for the loss.

Wet and Wild was fun though. Being the only game IC at my station, I had the chance to #1)be a solo kia, #2) decide on all the stupid tasks myself and #3) be extremely biased. My game, however, was complete and utter rubbish, what with sticking cards with letters on peoples foreheads and arranging them up to form words for points. It did however, turn out extremely fun at times.

Props:
Zosma 5: For being extremely horny.Brilliant use of ulu letters. I swear I forgot the word cervix existed.
Alhena something: For scolding their OGL with their letters. Fuck you andy = pwnage.
Sargas 5: For having an extremely good or very solo OGL. Both times on KYC and WnW he was practically leading the OG alone.
And a few other groups for spelling out my name.

Slops:
Regulus: I hate your OGL now. Dunno her name, but she was scolding me repeatedly, like once every 5 seconds. Like is this how you treat your GIC. If the other OGL wasn't my friend I would've flat out given you a big fat ZERO.

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Subject combinations are out, and I got Physics, Chem, Econs and Maths. Some combination from hell. Two subjects I've never touched and one I'm struggling with. Well done.

Went to appeal today, even thought the date closed already. First time in the morning, used the intercom. Teacher sounded scary. I ran away. Teacher came out after that and found thin air.

Second time teacher came out and was surprisingly friendly. I guess the phone does do alot to alter a person's voice. So I submitted my combination appeal for History Lit Econs and Maths. I swear if I do not get it my MJC life will last 3 years.

*prays that I do not become another Yap Chow*

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Oh, did the VS cheer during the campfire too. It was fun. It would've been more fun if someone wasn't trying to sodomize me with his knee throughout the cheer. I think my butt was on fire the rest of the night. I ran out of breath during the VS unite cheer too. First time that happened. Wonder why.

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I think I'm halfway through answering the question. Almost have my answer now. Hope it's right.

*Smiles weakly*

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Heard there was a tremor the other day. Jeevan was telling me how he thought he was feeling dizzy until he saw his mother gripping the sink. I never get to experience stuff like that. Such a shame.

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VALLEJO, Calif. - When Melvin Ainsworth went for his routine stroll on the Carquinez Bridge, the last thing he expected was to end up with six stitches above his left eye, a swollen lip and a sprained wrist.

Without warning, a Vallejo police officer tackled the 77-year-old Crockett man from behind on Saturday morning, he says.

"They ruined my 227th trip across the bridge," Ainsworth said. "The second half of the trip, I rode in an ambulance."

Ainsworth later learned that a tipster called police to report that a man in his 20s or 30s wearing a San Francisco 49ers jacket was about to jump or had a baby dangling over the edge of the bridge.

Ainsworth was wearing a 49ers jacket — but he was armed only with a camera and he's at least 40 years older.

After he got up, Ainsworth said he told Vallejo police Officer Jeremie Patzer "Mister, you don't know how sorry you're going to be before I'm through with you."

Patzer, 31, who apologized, declined to discuss the incident Tuesday. The department is investigating Ainsworth's complaint, said Lt. Lori Lee, department spokeswoman.

Ainsworth said he has filed a complaint with Vallejo police and met with civil rights attorney John Burris on Tuesday to discuss a possible lawsuit.

Officers said they yelled at Ainsworth to stop, but he didn't respond. The next thing Ainsworth knew, someone knocked him down from behind, Burris said.

"There wasn't anything he did that dictated that kind of use of force," Burris said. "He wasn't acting aggressively in any way. He wasn't running. He's 77 years old. He looks his age."

-Yahoo news

I found this funny for an odd reason. I think I'm going cranky.

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I think I'm in even bigger trouble now. Nat, I sure do hope you solve this for me...

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Well, a really long an unfunny entry. So yeah.

So, orientation began. And it wasn't half bad, I must say.

MMM today. I'm glad I didn't get the spot as a game IC after all. It was quite fun walking around and talking to "freshmen". And being overly enthu about nothing in particular.

I think I went high today. Many other OGLs did too. My voice is busted. Looks like I can forget about entering SYF for choir now.

-More updates coming when I feel less tired-

I had a nice, long, free day today to stay home and meditate. To think about what has been going wrong with my life, and about what has been going right. And to recall everything that has happened. Not just in the 1st 3 months at MJ, but also what happened in sec 4. It was a nice, relaxing day. These days won't be coming very often after tomorrow. Maybe they'll never even come, since there'll be tests lurking at the back of my head all the time.

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My thoughts have just taken a complete U-turn. I have decided that I do not want to be in choir anymore. However, I have already taken the measurements for the concert uniform. I hope it's not too late to quit. Certain events have scared me into not wanting to be in choir anymore. If I do stay(or rather, am forced to stay), I hope it's not something I come to regret. I swear, the groundbreaking news is causing me to feel like theres a finger stuck in my throat wiggling around. I an this -- close to hurling.

I don't want to run the risk by staying in choir. Not when something so valuable to me is at stake.

AAAAAH how.

note: as much as I might be scared right now, I'm probably still going to end up staying since this horrific news only concerns one person and is unlikely to affect me.

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Orientation 2 starts tomorrow. The start of 2 years in MJC. The end of 4 years in VS. It's a new chapter now. I will however, have to wear my horrid zosma shirt tomorrow, so this could be the start of a series of unfortunate events.

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"Counting Crows- Accidentally in Love" - I guess this song pretty much sums up what I've been going throught for a while. Am almost over it though, but have yet to find an answer to the last question. Sigh.

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SANTA CLARA -- Health officials confirmed Wednesday that a woman eating at a fast-food restaurant in San Jose Tuesday night bit into part of a human finger found in a bowl of chili.

The startling discovery occurred at a Wendy's Restaurant at 1405 Monterey Road around 7:20 p.m.

Sheriff's Deputy Terrance Helm said the 20-year-old woman ordered a bowl of chili and actually bit into the cooked fingertip.

"She was a bit grossed out and vomited numerous times," health Officer Dr. Marty Fenstersheib said. "She was emotionally distraught."

Health officials revealed that the fingertip was approximately one and one-half inches long. A fingernail was also discovered.

San Jose police officers responded to the scene and took possession of the digit, preserving it until health officials could examine the find.

The finger was considered to be fairly well preserved and did not show major signs of decomposition, according to Fenstersheib.

Health officials report the finger appears to have been torn off and not sliced with a knife, indicating it was possibly severed by a machine during the packaging process.

Despite the obviously unpleasant nature of the discovery, the health risks are being considered minimal.Fenstersheib said the chili was cooked at 170 degrees and served on a steam tray at 150 degrees, temperatures high enough to destroy any viruses such as HIV or Hepatitis.

If the woman did contract any of the viruses, they would likely not show up in her system for six months.

Fenstersheib said a baseline test was conducted on the woman to determine if she had any diseases prior to contact with the finger, as doctors will await the six-month incubation period to determine if she contracted anything.

She will likely have one year in order to file a lawsuit in the case.

Health officials are beginning their investigation into determining the owner and origin of the finger.

The chili is made on-site at the restaurant, using several ingredients from a variety of companies.

Fenstersheib said investigators are tracing back all the ingredients to their respective companies and then analyzing records to see if there were any reported accidents associated with the packaging plants.

The chili base was made in Dublin, Ohio.

Tracing the source of the ingredients could take several weeks, but investigators believe they will be able to match the finger due to fingerprints.

The chili was cooked between 10 a.m. and 2 p.m. on Tuesday, meaning there are a number of patrons who could have eaten the product.

An inspection by health officials today at the restaurant revealed there was no accident on-site.

"The employees all had ten fingers," environmental health Director Ben Gale said.(How retarded does that sound?)

Though health inspectors did find one minor violation there was no evidence that the restaurant was at fault.

The restaurant was temporarily shut down directly following the discovery, but has since been reopened.Gale said in 35 years of service in the health department, he "has never seen anything like this.

"Wendy's officials released a written statement saying they are "committed to determining the facts and getting to the bottom of this matter very quickly."

Ouchie. I dunno if to pity the guy without a finger or the woman who bit into the finger.

I can't stand how thick the MJ uniform is. It's almost as if MJC wanted their uniforms to be able to pressure cook their students in the hot Singapore climate. Well, either that or they wanted an excuse to make their uniforms more expensive.

I guess it'll take a while to get used to.

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I would start bitching about Bertrand specifically now. I would start bitching about how he dosen't deserve to get into VJ but manages to do so by underhand means. I would start bitching about how he is depriving a single-digit pointer(or two) of a place in VJC with his presence. I would start bitching about how he would give a bad impression of VS people when he does go to VJ. I would start bitching about how he dosen't at least feel guilty about it. I would start bitching about how like 1 million people deserve a place in VJ instead of the talentless him.

Then I realized that had he not gone to VJ, he would be in MJ.

Argument overrided.

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Just when I thought my questions had been answered, another one pops up. This one is oddly difficult to answer. I'm not sure I can put this behind me just yet till I come to a decision. I'll take some time to think it over. Even though I'm sure I'll be regretting whatever decision I make, I have to come to conclusion sometime. And it better be soon. The more I think about it, the more confused I get.

Blah. What should I do.

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Supposedly, theres a 50% discount at Cineleisure's World of Sports today. Maybe I should go.

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I have a sinking feeling that I won't be getting my 1st choice combination of Phy Chem Lit Maths so I'll get thrown into Phy Chem Econs Maths. Blarg. Think I'll end up appealing to arts. Then my exams will basically consist of 27 hours of essay writing and 6 hours of problem solving. Not that I'm feeling happy about it.

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I should stop saying yes sometimes. Gives me too much obligations.

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Went to the beach yesterday. It was relaxing.

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Life is strange. Sigh.

I woke up late today. It felt good. But my hopes of moping around the house all day were dashed when I realized I had to go to school to design Zosma t-shirts for OGLs.

It was actually quite fun sitting around with the other OGLs in the atrium slacking around claiming to be waiting for markers. Anyway, I think I mutilated my shirt. Makes me almost want to not wear it. But I guess I should be proud of it since I drew on it myself. Even if the Z on the back looks grotesque and the front isn't exactly a masterpiece either.

There were people who actually wrote "gay" on their collars though. Hmmm.

Also, Jeremy Lua asked me to go eat dinner with his Alhena people. Feeling awkward I politely refused. I did feel kind of bad after kicking his butt like tons of times in daidee too. Maybe he dosen't fit into the "have cards, will play" system of MJC though.

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JC news:

Mok got posted to YJC. Like WOW la. He did appeal to poly though.

Valerie's appeal to MJC from TPJC failed. And she got 9 points. MJC is acting big again.

Ian did not make it to VJ and is now in AC. *snickers in sadistic glee*

TPJC orientation blows.

There is no space for mass dancing in TJC.

Many people who got posted to SRJC are trying to appeal to MJ.

MJC orientation starts only next week. Which is good.

VJC has lots of un-enthu people.

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Apparently there's a 4H gathering tomorrow. Shall I go?

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I think I've managed to find myself a mental foothold. Unless something really bad happens I won't be slipping into those bad thoughts again. Still need to keep myself alert though.

Strange. I should be over it by now. But I keep thinking about it. Even as I try to busy myself with everything around, the thought creeps into my mind, and I am dragged into my warped mind again. I struggle to get out. But it's not easy. When I let down my guard, it sneaks into my brain. When I rest my mind, it floats into my mind. When I have no thoughts, it becomes one. When I am caught up, it blankets all my other thoughts like a wave of darkness sweeps across the night sky, and I struggle to push it away, if only temporary. I would try to rip it apart, but alas, the material is too thick. It's just not easy. Not when the inadvertant source is so inadvertantly close. I should try to get over it. I must. For my life.

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Today was total chaos. Wasn't feeling it today, I guess. Not much was happening and yet there was so much confusion. Not to mention my Freshmen don't look like a very fun bunch to be with, though that remains to be seen. And I was getting repeatedly distracted. Bah. Monday better be better than this.

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Sigh. Sometimes I should just keep my mouth shut. Now I'm in a big mess. Hate it when this happens. Stoopid Nat. I don't need more people trying to tau pok me or beat me up.

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I have 3 hours to submit my subject combination. It's okay I guess since I have no school tomorrow for some odd reason. Looks like I'll be sleeping in.

Most likely I'll apply for 1) Phy + Chem + Lit + Maths and 2) Phy + Chem + Lit + Maths. If I do get #2 though, I'll probably either 3) appeal to arts and take 3a) Lit + History + Econs + Maths or 3b) Lit + History + Maths or go crazy and do 4) Phy + Chem + Fmaths + Maths. Damn, that's alot of options. Bleah. I shall not let it influence my decisions.

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I can't believe my lying skills are up there. Nearly everyone whom I told I got posted to TPJC believed what I said. That is, until I went to school and pointed out my name on the notice board.

Oh and Denys believed me too. The fool. At least he wasn't the only one.

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Shall go and choose my subject combi now, while I'm still in a half-decent frame of mind.

Have you ever been in love?

Horrible, isn't it?

It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens your heart and it means someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses. You build up this whole armor, for years, so nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...

You give them a piece of you. They don't ask for it. They do something dumb one day like kiss you, or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore.

Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so a simple phrase like "Maybe we should just be friends" or "How very perceptive" turns into a glass splinter working its way to your heart.

It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a body-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. Nothing should be able to do that.

Especially not love.

I hate love.

- Neil Gaiman, Sandman: The Kindly Ones

Really like this passage. It's not the normal angst you typically see around. It does hold some truth, at least for people around my age too.

I am still an advocate of love though. =)

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Pretty much slacked through school today. Posting is out tomorrow. Esther is trying to get us to go to school to get our posting results, citing "it's faster" as the chief reason. I think it's a trap. Once we get there they'll chain us to pillars and force everyone to at least appeal to mj.

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Did however, end up going home late since I stayed in school to joke around with random people. Finally did tell some people what they needed to hear too. Which was kind of hard last week. All I needed was some peer pressure.

And I have yet to understand the MRT game.

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Lots of people are concerned about my toes. People, let me assure you : It is not that painful. Try it if you don't believe me.

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I am still confused. Either that, or my brain is still numb.

Life is depressing. When all you do is mope around the house the entire day you don't feel good. It is however a good rest since term 2 starts tomorrow. Joe was making fun of me for it too. Damn.

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New GP rechargeable AAA batteries! Got them at Suntec yesterday. 4 for $15.90 is always good. Its 950 mAh too. Which basically means it lasts pretty long. This was done while Denys, Andrew and WIlbur were getting their faces slapped at SP yesterday. There was another basketball thing at Ngee Ann City too. Maybe I should've went to watch or something. Though I doubt there'll be much to see other than overly flashy basketball shoes, unnecessary equipment and needless showboating.

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My knee feels much better now, almost painless. phew.

I got run over by a car yesterday. Well, not really run over. I was happily jaywalking at a random road when a car proceeds to zoom past me just inches away. Being the earphone-happy idiot that I am, I shrug and continue walking, only to have another car move past me and run over my toes. This would perfectly okay, but the car proceeded to brake on my toes. Think of it as after the car braked after the first wheel ran over me, just as the second wheel was on my foot. The driver then proceeds go come out and check on me, only to find a raving lunatic fastened to the ground my rubber weights screaming at him to go. As luck would have it, the car banged by knee just as it sped away. While it does feel better now, I was walking like I had a wooden leg yesterday. Yep, it hurt.

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Listening to native Japanese people trying to talk in Singapore in kind of funny. There was this guy trying to order food at Suntec yesterday and jamming up the entire queue. Darble Chisburgles, Firey o Pish and Mcthpithy Darble are not on the Macdonald's Menu no matter how many times you say it, Japs.

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I think I just put myself in a very bad mental position. I need to go bang my head on a wall. Or something.

MJ's new mass dance is pretty fun, as much as i hate to admit it. Still can't perfect the steps though. I think I'll find myself tossed out of the hall during orientation, since I dance like Denys. I don't understand why we have to use another Black Eyed Peas song. Mok would be proud.

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I kind of hate hospitals. The moment I walk in my stomach churns as I smell the putrid stench of the sick, the dying and the dead. This is followed by the smell of medicine, detergent and soap, courtesy of overcautious hospital staff. Everyone lies in a bed, unable to move. It's a depressing sight. I've worked in a hospital before. It wasn't fun.

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Saw In Good Company today. It's a movie much like Love Actually. Not anything on a large scale, but rather soft and hartwarming. And funny at times too. Oh, and the young male lead looks alot like Toby Maguire but wasn't. Throughout the movie I was expecting him to climb the wall or something. Oh, and Dennis Quaid pretty much owns all old (white) male actors.

I need to look out for symbolism more. I only got one bit of symbolism like hours after seeing the movie. Same with shutter. I just need to think more.

Movies left : Robots, Spongebob

Coach Carter opens in april. With Samuel L. Jackson. This should be good.

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I have a busy friday tomorrow. Should I go for A104 lunch or basketball training? Sheesh. I hate having to make stupid decisions.

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It's odd how you can be going strong, and get derailed by one moment of weakness. I'm kind of in a dilemma now. I sure as hell am lazy to think too much over it though.

I am back from OGL camp. It was actually pretty slack(although it shouldn't have been). Kinda fun though. But it did get draggy at times. Well, at least I'll be slacking for most of orientation. I'm in charge of 2 games, and I have choir on the day of MMM where I have to run around with my OG so most likely I'll be doing mass dance or something. Can't be bad.

I do feel really bad about certain incidents though. This isn't a good place to elaborate since I'm not really proud of it, but I'll just say my mean streak with girls can't seem to stop for some reason.

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Have mass dance practice today. Denys is probably cowering in jealousy right now.

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Apparently, I got roped in to play a basketball match at Cipings church. Read Denys' blog for details. Fans of the team are always welcome.

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Argh. I am feeling sick right now.

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Carrying a pail on the train makes you look really stupid. Now I know what Mok and a pail have in common.

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On a side note, I have no idea why my parents like no nag so much and listen so little. Living with them is repeating everything I say thrice. I need to go out since my mum has one week MC. Argh.

Pot luck yesterday, to send Sid off to NS. I planned to buy satay at first, but upon walking around the whole marine parade area and realizing that nobody sells satay in the morning, I blew $6 on you char kuay/ you tiao and headed down and saw curry chicken, Shepherd Pie, croquettes, cheesy chicken, salmon patties and roasted ribs. Then I looked at my you tiao and felt stupid.

That being said, my you tiao actually turned out to be quite popular due to the fact that it can be dipped into pretty much anything, from curry to cheese to beer. I think everyone suddenly became self conscious, because nobody dared to eat the cheesy chicken Madman brought(it did taste rather good though). It was funny.

Oh, and I drank beer. Not enough to get really drunk, but enough to make me feel odd. I don't think I'll ever get used to the taste of beer. Heineken just leaves a very bitter aftertaste which I don't quite like.

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OGL camp tomorrow. Bah. I should start packing soon. But: No bag pack what?

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It seems I have forgotten to review Lemony Snicket's A Series of Unfortuneate Events. Incidentally, the book wasn't written by Lemony Snicket, but by some other guy. I believe theres a "andl" suffix in his name somewhere.

Don't go in expecting a funny movie just because there's Jim Carrey and because of the title. If you be like me and go in expecting it to be funny in a sadistic happy tree friends kind of way. I was sorely disappointed. That being said, the movie actually wasn't bad, but it was more like Spy Kids, just with a different setting, better scriptwriting and better acting. Yea, this >>>> Spy Kids. I shall not spoil the movie.

There are still alot of movies to watch, but so little time, and so little money. The world is a sad place.

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*Waits for someone to organize to class outing*

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I will try my best to make this a busy holiday. Basketball anyone?

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Mok is quitting his job soon. How sad. I will not be able to tease him for a while. On a brighter note, he won't be borrowing money from me anytime soon. Hope he follows the trend and gets a new ball too.

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What to do....what to do....

Well, Holidays are here. I won't say I'm not happy because school was fun while it lasted. But yeah, I'm happy. No time to be sad really since my holidays look kinda busy. OGL camp on monday and tuesday should tire me out enough. Besides, a break from schoolwork and choir is hard to come by. Might as well enjoy it while I can.

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Andrew got himself a new basketball. Am looking forward to thrashing him with it. Knowing VJC people, however, Wilbur will probably try to get a share of it and then dump it at his house with the excuse that "my house is only 5 minutes from VJC", only for it never to see daylight ever again.

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I think the student council sees me as some kind of slacker. For orientation, we have three events : KYC, MMM, WnW. Some of the game ICs get to conduct games in all 3 events. Others get 2. I seem to be one of the few who only get to do 1. It's really depressing to see everyone else getting to do more than you. I mean, even Rachel the slacker gets to do 2. I hope some of them don't get into MJ. Then maybe I'll have a chance to slack less (read: torture other people more). For once, I am finding myself angry about being allowed to slack. Could this be a turning point. Nah.

On a brighter note though, I get cool points for being in charge of station 1 out of 30.

I have to bring a pail to OGL camp. Wonder why. Wonder how I'm going to carry it to Pasir Ris without looking like an idiot/ trainee cleaner.

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Went bowling yesterday with A104. It was kinda funny since I arrived 1 1/2 hours late. I blame the student council for that. I did however get to catch Suq falling on the bowling alley, Jeevan laughing and trying it out himself and falling in an even more hilarious fashion. The manager proceeded to come over and tick Jeevan off, much to our enjoyment.

I'l miss A104. I should write farewell notes or something. Quite a few people wrote for me I think.

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I have more or less sealed my fate in MJ choir, after taking measurements for my suit. Shit. Hope Rambo lets me take another cca.

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Have pot luck later. Shall go think of what to buy.

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Still searching for good music to replace the current.

Had an eye test in school on tuesday.

Man, it was depressing.

So I sit down on the canteen bench and they tell me to put my face into a strange contraption. I see a nice green thing, thinking they would ask me to tell them what I saw or something. But noooo, the words that come out of her mouth are "Open your eyes bigger please". How encouraging.

This was followed by the fact that my perfect eyesight is blown. Lucky I don't have to wear contacts or glasses. I would be so sad. That being said, 50 degrees on one eye and 25 on the other is already a pretty bad stab in the heart. I am miserable.

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Loko wants me to edit a certain part of my post. I wonder why. I don't think it's that important, honestly.

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Tomorrow is a long day. Should I go to school?

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A lot of things seem to irritate me nowadays. That's not to say I've been in a bad or irritable mood, just that a lot of things seem to be more irritating nowadays. Like the way canteen seats are so easily koped in MJ. It's almost as if Mok was running classes there. And people who like having their photo taken over and over again. It's unpleasant that people are so concerned about looking good in photos just because they don't look good in real life that they must have their face splashed at a certain angle and a certain distance on a picture. Next time someone asks me to do that I am turning away. The insect situation in the house seems to be a rising problem too. I swear I need to learn the secret art of fly-swatting. So many more but I shall not elaborate. I think I'm very moody right now. Hoefully people actually get the hint and leave me alone tomorrow. I'm just not very good at sending out vibes.

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Bah. Why am I still awake.

Am at school now. We have to do a strange assignment on Australian Aborigines for GP. Which is kinda dumb. At least MJ computers are pretty reliable as compared to VS ones which are about as good as my chinese.

Speaking of chinese, I got 47/100 for my first Chinese test. Not a bad stat. Hope I get to change teachers after term 1.

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I'm not very fond of public computers. So many keyboard sounds around me is quite unsettling.

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There's a scholarship exhibition in MJ now. Which equals many many freebies. Got a free highlighter, fridge magnet and keychain. Now I just want to see if the flyers are of any use.

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Being an OGL is going to takeup alot of my time. Bah.

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Not in the mood right now.

I seem to be really sick as of late. From a fever on wednesday to stomach flu on monday, and normal flu now. This is stupid. Think I need to actually start taking care of myself. I hate having to take MCs. I'd rather come to school sick and have the teacher tell me to sleep in class. =D

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I won't be appealing to VJ. Apparently it's partial 6 for arts, 7 if Vj is kind. Which means that since it's the dragon batch, there might be an overload of applicants, which says that partial 6 may not even make it. Which would suggest that more people than expected will be staying in MJ. Always a good thing to have more people.

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We had to perform a lit play. Luckily, I managed to worm my way into a directing role, which basically means I sat around and let Alexis the parade commander do the shouting. That being said, it actually went quite well, even though the rehearsals went haywire like my current mind. That being said, there were actually quite a few screw ups, but luckily nobody noticed it since nobody reads King Lear until they need to. They will be shocked when they actually read it. Well those who stay in MJ anyway.

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I seem to have a lot of sudden urges lately. Just had an urge to play pool this morning. Followed by an urge for basketball. And now I have an urge for a blackout to happen so I can be amused.

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Had pizza hut today with A104. We actually got 10 people together for once. I had no idea what we ordered. At first everyone seemed to agree on big pizzas, but I turned around and turned back and there were small pizzas, weird looking sausages, onion rings, strange looking vegetarian rings, chicken, lasagne among other random assorted stuff. It was funny. I thought Pizza Hut actually screwed up.

Going home from Compass point, however, is a drag. I have to take MRT all the way down to Dhoby Ghaut and switch trains twice, or take to Outram and switch once, which still takes very long. OR, I can take a train back to Pasir Ris and feel stupid about myself.

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Should I continue taking econs? It does seem like a pretty void subject to me.

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I would start ranting about now, but I shall not due to laziness, and since doing this would result in extreme unpopularity for me. Let's just say we're out of secondary school and into JC. Some things just have to be left behind.

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Nowhere seems to be a safe place anymore. It's too easy to get spotted. Sometimes I wish I could blend in more easily and hide in the crowd. As good as it is to see people you know everywhere, sometimes I just don't need to. Ecspecially at the expo or airport, when I need some time alone. "Me" time is hard to come by nowadays.

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Oh no. I need to get a bag for OGL camp. My current bag won't be big enough, I think. There goes my money. Looks like an iRiver is joining a list of a sharp knife, a test paper with an "A" on it, Mok's wallet and a pretty girl's hand as things I won't find in my hands anytime soon.

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I would post lyrics now, but the entry already looks long enough, I think. So it's lights out for now. New question: Are short but frequent or long but irregular blog posts better?

As it turns out, I have even more options for subject combinations, but they involve taking F maths, which involves buying a $200 calculator, which involves me going bankrupt. So I shall not touch F maths.

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I was supposed to have choir yesterday. However, since I was using the lag-free moe systen to apply for my JAE, I slept at a very subtle time of 3am and woke up at the even more subtle time of 1pm.

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Aston Villa finally won a match yesterday. Whoopees. Luke Moore is goodness.

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I logged on to msn in the morning. I saw Mok online, not at the office for once.

Me: I'm watching a movie later.
Mok: Ooh. Can I go. (Obviously trying to be thick skinned)
Me: Go church la you.
Mok: I'm injured. Cannot go church.
Me: But you can go watch movie.
Mok: Sprained thumb. Cannot hold bible.

As it turns out, some things never change. Once a Victorian, always a Victorian.

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Caught Hitch today. Quite a good movie actually. I'll recommend it. Ecspecially since theres Will Smith, probably the best black actor around. Right now it's pretty much ranked like

Will Smith> Jamie Foxx>Eddie Murphy>Samuel L. Jackson>Morgan Freeman>Don Cheadle>>>>>>>>>>>>>>Cuba Gooding Jr.

Anyway, the movie was pretty okay storyline wise and is very spontaneous. So yeah, it's pretty good.

On the topic of movies, there seem to be some pretty good movies coming out soon.

1. A series of unfortunate events
2. Spanglish( I'm not really keen on this one)
3. Boogeyman
4. Spongebob Squarepants the Movie(Must. Watch.)
5. Winnie the Pooh the Movie(I'm really not keen on this one)
6. The Pacifier (Vin Diesel in a comedy. Should be interesting)

Which accumulates to about $39-$51 in expenses. this is so not friendly to my pocket.

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There seems to be an econs test tomorrow. Shall bo chup.

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Hm, sometimes I wonder: What do I want?

Bloggage frequency has been decreasing as of late. I am sorry my fans and dearest readers.

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My parents have never been much help. I know that they are keeping me as a cash cow or a trophy that they can boast to other people about. They don't really care about what I do, which is perfectly okay with me, since I've never been one to ocnsult them for help, since they'd just ask me to do whatever sounds the nicest to brag about.

Lately they seem to be afraid of a lot of things. My dad has been an asshole as of late. It's almost like he consciously looking at faults for him to nag at me about. I don't bother arguing with him anymore because he's afraid of losing power in the household that he'll just shout back even louder. Completely not worth my effort. He's more concerned about how dirty the furniture gets than whether his son breaks a leg. All he does nowadays is complain about how lazy I am about the house and how he dosent know what I'm up to, while sitting at the television and not getting up except to go to the kitchen. I guess he dosen't notice that I spend more time at school than he spends at work.

My mother isn't really much help. She thinks that reputation would determine how good the course would be for me, when in fact it does more for her name than for her brain. She talks to me like I'm a little kid. And I think she has a short memory. I have to listen to her repeat the same thing 6 times in 10 minutes almost everyday. And she dosen't even take the effort to think about what I'm saying. 1 question can become 10 questions all meaning the same thing. Life at home is stupid.

That being said, my brother actually is of a bit more help, but all his advice revolves around not doing whatever he's doing, which is going to poly and doing karate. Right. Like I'm going to do that.

Life at home is frustrating.

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I was talking to Mok a couple nights ago on msn at about 9pm. And he was still at the office. Muahahahaha. Die Mok.

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I just applied for my JAE. I think trying to apply at 2 in the morning is good since the server dosen't lag too much. However, applying at 2 in the morning also means that chances are I'm not thinking straight. Guess what, of all things to happen, I clicked on the wrong thing. Which means my courses look like this.

1. Mass communication(Ngee Ann Poly)
2. MJ science
3. VJ arts
4. Radio and Music Technology(Singapore Poly)
5. TPJC arts
6. Real Estate Business (Nanyang Poly)
7. TPJC science
8. MJ arts.

I'm screwed.

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Muahahahah. I feel so dumb. I didn't click submit and pay. Which means my choices hasn't been entered yet. Phew. Now it looks like this.

MJ science, MJ arts, VJ arts, TP arts, TP science, SP,NP, NYP.

8 courses, since it's a lucky number.

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MJ seems to have done quite well for it's A levels. Which means life in MJ will be tough. hah. I look forward to the challenge. *puts on a confident face, but is actually scared to death*

On a side note, I'm still undecided on what subject combi I should take.

(Add Cmaths to all)

Physics + Lit + Econs
Chem + Lit + Econs
History + Lit + Econs
Physics + Lit + Chem
Lit + Econs

Views, anyone? I really need advice for this. And don't ask me to ask my parents. I will slap you.

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My toe has blisters. Yay.

On the 28th of Feb, I got my O level results. Can't help but look at it and shrug, even if I do act pissed. Sciences have never been my strong point. There wasn't much I could do about my Lit. Comb. humans was a surprise. Probably could have done for my A maths, but that would still leave me with 11 points. Not much Difference, really. I'm not very sure about English tho.

For those who feel kaypo, it goes like this.

Chinese-B4
Physics, Pure Lit- B3
E maths-A1
Everything else-A2

(12 points)

I was pretty happy when I saw 5 As. Then I saw two,two,two and two. Then I started grumbling.

Will be taking some time to think everything through. Maybe I will go to trinity. Maybe I will stay in MJ.

But first, I need to get my Singpass.

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Actually, the only reason I'm pissed is that I still need to do my econs work. And Chinese. Sooooooo eeeeeevvvvvvviiiillllllll.

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I didn't get thrown into the pond. Phew. It would've been pretty good to take a dip though.

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Am lacking inspiration right now. All I have to say is that for people with blogs, please type in a way where everyone can read and understand properly. I don't really care if yuor command of English goes down the drain, but PlEaSe Do NoT tYpE lIkE tHiS, 0r 1K3 +h1S. I will slap you. Also, compromise on words like "ah","de","ba","haha"(we all know you're laughing at nothing), and "mi". Also, NEVER EVER use a Z in place of an S.

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While Mok was holed up in an office yesterday, some of us were playing ball till about 8. Be jealous, my working friend.

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Looks like the class is going to be split many ways. Don't really like it, but oh well, it has to happen.

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VJ choir auditions later. Dunno if I should go. Life is bad.