Friday, July 14, 2006

So, due to a sudden tuberculosis scare in school, everyone who came into contact with said person had to go for a jab today. Which was pretty fun actually, since all we did was slack around outside while people were doing stuff like mugging for the chemistry test, making lame jokes in Chinese and passing out at the sight of needles. Which probably would be an awfully fun experience, except my body has a masochistic tendency of never passing out, instead keeping me just awake enough to experience the entire ordeal, be it taking an injection, sitting on a rollercoaster, staring up a guy's ass while climbing up a mountain or drinking a stupid amount of liquor. Of course, it was also fun since I was presented with the opportunity to miss lessons like communists miss Chairman Mao.

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Midyear results are out! Not that I did spectacularly, but the lack of grades starting with the letter F are rather encouraging. Along with the absence of grades starting with the letters A and B, this makes for a rather average and mediocre package that I would probably be left alone for in comparison to the oofs, offs, foffs, and fffs of the generation.

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When people experience failure, there are ultimately two main types of reactions leading to a negative outcome. In the first, people get downhearted, lose confidence, let go of concentration and everything goes downhill from there.

There is, of course, the other outcome - which tends to come from the Bruce Banners of the world. At the end, they tend to walk along a desolate road while the rain pours down on them to the tune of miserable sounds piano music. Of course, nobody wants to see that. Instead, before the serene strolling part comes the unleashing of primal rage, the letting off of steam, blowing of tops, loss of composure, there are a million other things you could call it.

Now, I don't really think there is anything wrong with anger on its own- it is, after all, a natural reaction. Anger is most of the time, a result of passion : The greater the anger, chances are, the more passionate you feel for the issue. Breaking up with a girlfriend, for example, should always be more infuriating that leaving the crappy lit teacher you had in secondary school. However you react to something, the fact that you DO react does show a certain degree of passion, just a matter of how much. And if you don't react to it, there always stands a reasonable and perhaps strong argument that you probably should be doing something else, like working in MacDonald's or rising to the rank of Head Clerk in a shady Malaysian "medicine" company.

Unfortuneately, anger isn't exactly a good thing to bring to the hypothetical trading table of life to ask for success in exchange. In fact, it probably isn't a good thing to bring anywhere. Life is a game, it's meant to be fun. Most people would probably agree with me that Adam Sandler, over his movie career, have proven that getting angry is neither big nor clever. And for typical people like you and me, you probably won't earn the kind of dough that Mr. Sandler does when people laugh at you, be it in secret, behind your back and making you feel paranoid, or out in the open and in your face, making you feel like an even bigger doofus than you already are.

Anger is just a word in a nice Oasis song - treat it like one. You don't want to have to manage it.